so.
i actually feel like writing in this thing again.
i don't know why.
anyway.

went to church today.
they had a crawfish boil and i went because of that. didn't really eat. wasn't hungry. i saw jonathan and geoffrey there, though! it was awesome.

after the morning church service, when we all went outside to eat, i grabbed j&g and we sat by the lake. ben and alex sat with us as well. we kind of all sat there and i caught up with them. when i first ran into jonathan he enveloped me in a hug and said he could cry. x] i could too, man. it was awesome seeing them again. seriously.
i felt kinda bad for not including ben in a lot of today. but, i haven't see jonathan nor geoffrey in so long. i miss them already. i think seeing them just reminded me of how much i missed them. but i guess if i hadn't have seen them.. well, i don't know. i wouldn't be missing them as much. xD;

seriously, though, it was amazing.
we sat around and talked about the past, general stupidity, and who has changed. how they've changed. how we've changed.
and i got hugs. :] had to tell geoffrey to give me one, lol, but i still got one and that's all that matters~

the swine flu has me paraniod. big time. mainly because EVERYONE IS TALKING ABOUT IT WTF. i know ignoring a problem doesn't rid of it, but i'd rather not be haunted by it. :/ i've been thinking.. what if it gets one of the people in my family? i seriously don't know what i'd do. i can't imagine life without my family, and i can't shake the feeling that i'm going to lose someone close to me. brandon was literally centimeters from getting into a wreck today. :/
i'm just paranoid, i guess.
scared.

lately i've been thinking of the past. and thinking about different scenarios for the future.
too much thinking for me.