Hold me..
Journal Entry: Sun Jun 8, 2008, 1:25 PM
My new medicine is driving me up a wall.
I'm going insane- and I'm not saying that in a funny, joking matter.
I'm losing all of my grip on reality, and my sanity is being robbed from me.
I keep having wild nightmares that are scary for reasons I don't understand. Everything is scaring me- from a lawnmower outside my window to the mirror on the left of my room. I feel extremely lonely, and trapped.. and I can't shake the feeling something is going to go gravely wrong.
I started having a feeling something bad was going to happen.. Thursday.. or maybe it was Wednesday.. I got so scared I even called my mum and warned her to be careful. I warned everyone I could to be careful... I went to sleep, in hopes of getting rid of anything coming my way.
I feel just.. afraid. Afraid of everything and nothing. So lonely.. I wish I could just cling to someone and be rocked to a peaceful sleep. I haven't slept in nearly 24 hours now, afraid of my dreams... afraid of the unknown.. afraid of every day noises and items.. afraid of what my mind is doing to me.
We go see my counselor again Tuesday. Maybe he'll be able to help me...
I'm afraid. And my heart aches like I've just lost something or someone dear to me. I just..
I'm so afraid.
- Mood:
Worried - Listening to: Nothing
- Reading: Nothing
- Watching: Nothing
- Playing: Nothing
- Eating: Nothing.
- Drinking: Nothing
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